DEDICATED TO THE MAN THAT I LOVE THE MOST...

"Everytime" by Britney Spears

Notice me

Take my hand

Why are we

Strangers when

Our love is strong

Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, it's haunting me

I guess I need you baby

I make believe

That you are here

It's the only way

I see clear

I KNOW I'M WRONG

But you seem to move on easy :'(

And everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain

Please forgive me

My weakness caused you pain

And this song is my sorry...

At night I pray

That soon your face

Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you baby

I do not know whether you would ever check my blog because I have restricted you from doing so. However if Allah has directed you to do so, you would see this and know how I truly feel about us. I do not want you to worry about me, I just want you to move on and be the most contented man alive, even if I would not breathe in the same air with you when you are enjoying those moments. I will smile if you smile, because since I failed to make you smile, I will always pray for you to always smile. Sometimes, to love someone the most is to let him go.

Still, serving this sentence is one of the most difficult sanctions I have to suffer in life. I feel like it's killing me and I am dying inside despite the fact that my exterior conceals it without flaw. No matter what, as the person to be blamed, I am accepting this with an open heart and I know I must move on. I will not pray for you to be with me if I do not deserve you. But I will ALWAYS pray if Allah has forgiven me for my mistakes to you, if I finally deserve to be your wife, and only if you still love me the way you always had, I pray that you would come back to me and take my hand and never let it go. I will love you all my life.

Function/Night Make-up (Solekan Majlis/Malam) for Harian Metro @ Bangunan NSTP, Bangsar, Kuala Lumpur.

Assalamualaikum Stylistas of Abaya Suraya!

This step by step makeover was done on my sister, Deena at the New Straits Times office for Harian Metro newspaper. Reporter involved was Miss Fairul Asmaini Mohd. Pilus while the photographer was Mr. Yahya Zain. The look expected was for a Iftar or Fast Breaking function. =)

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Assalamualaikum Stylistas of Abaya Suraya!

Solekan langkah demi langkah ini dilakukan ke atas adik Sue sendiri, Deena di pejabat New Straits Times untuk akhbar Harian Metro. Wartawan yang terlibat ialah Cik Fairul Asmaini Mohd. Pilus manakala jurufotonya ialah Encik Yahya Zain. Wajah yang diinginkan ialah untuk Majlis Iftar atau Buka Puasa. =)

Web Construction @ Starbucks, KLCC (Wednesday, 10th October 2007)

*updated and published on Saturday 20th September 2008.

Salam,

As most people have complimented my website because they find it attractive and funky (alhamdulillah), actually I am no computer savvy really. So it's not me who created my website with the bright and colourful layout, it's actually done by my sister's friend cum my web administrator Megat Ahmad Najmi, or I usually call him Cimeg..hehe for no reason actually but I like calling him Cimeg :p

Megat Ahmad Najmi aka Cimeg working out on my website during its initial stages

Megat graduated from UNITAR in ICT. He's very patient obeying to my whims and fancies in creating my website www.surayanuar.com . I just gave him a rough sketching of what I desire for my website, the colours, the concept that it should be girlish but not too mushy, more like funky yet feminine and most importantly it must be attractive.

Wonderfully, from the eyes of a straight guy, he produced me with what I had asked, only better! I find it amazing because he managed to produce my ideas into reality though my explanation was very brief and not too detail. Seriously he did not disappoint me at all in fact he made me very ecstatic about my website.

Megat also has patiently taught me of how to update my website myself, so now I can fiddle around with much ease using the Microsoft Frontpage & Cute FTP Pro. Yes both are very simple programmes but at least I am not that dumb in using computer programmes now hehe. Cooler thing is, I can just reach him without hesitation if I need him to teach me things or even come to meet me in person if there's anything which is related to the editing of my website.

Yes he's the person that has customized my blog too :) So people if you want somebody to design your website according to the designs and functions that you like, you may reach him by contacting him and I'll ask him to contact you. By the way if you like to view a sample of his blog which he has customized of course, you may log on to : http://magicstarfish.blogspot.com/

Yes my sister Deena is always around with me most of the time, further more Megat is her friend so she should be.

My loyal ex-boyfriend was there too, studying while waiting, always supporting me with my work.

Nana chatting with Suhail

Yes Nana always has this appeal to make people laugh (or you could also pretend to laugh with her jokes).

Again Nana, the active chatterbox

The decor for Suria KlCC's concourse area for Aidilfitri 2007

We just hung out at the park for a while after we have finished work.

Yes Nana and Megat did manage to snap some photos of the two of them, but hehe seriously it looks more like a super-imposed shot. Hehe it was tough to ask them to snap these photos because they felt embarrased that people might think they were tourists being excited to check out the fountain.

This one Nana has the Mak Nyah grin :p