DEDICATED TO THE MAN THAT I LOVE THE MOST...

"Everytime" by Britney Spears

Notice me

Take my hand

Why are we

Strangers when

Our love is strong

Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, it's haunting me

I guess I need you baby

I make believe

That you are here

It's the only way

I see clear

I KNOW I'M WRONG

But you seem to move on easy :'(

And everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain

Please forgive me

My weakness caused you pain

And this song is my sorry...

At night I pray

That soon your face

Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you baby

I do not know whether you would ever check my blog because I have restricted you from doing so. However if Allah has directed you to do so, you would see this and know how I truly feel about us. I do not want you to worry about me, I just want you to move on and be the most contented man alive, even if I would not breathe in the same air with you when you are enjoying those moments. I will smile if you smile, because since I failed to make you smile, I will always pray for you to always smile. Sometimes, to love someone the most is to let him go.

Still, serving this sentence is one of the most difficult sanctions I have to suffer in life. I feel like it's killing me and I am dying inside despite the fact that my exterior conceals it without flaw. No matter what, as the person to be blamed, I am accepting this with an open heart and I know I must move on. I will not pray for you to be with me if I do not deserve you. But I will ALWAYS pray if Allah has forgiven me for my mistakes to you, if I finally deserve to be your wife, and only if you still love me the way you always had, I pray that you would come back to me and take my hand and never let it go. I will love you all my life.